Just because...

...most people subscribe to the belief that change doesn't happen overnight doesn't mean that this belief is true. I've met countless people who have seemingly changed overnight but the shock I feel now just can't compare. Maybe it's not just about change, maybe it's about the betrayal... About how one person is so set in her ways and never succumbed while I was there. Could it all just be a competition? That if she were more like me she would feel compared to me while I were there so she strived to remain different?

Being away from home and the people I care about has really opened my mind. Maybe it's that or reality hitting. Or maybe I'm just growing up, along with the people around me and I start seeing changes that I do not wish to see.

Nah, I think it's more about the betrayal.

Maybe it's time for me to change. To leave this idealistic world that I refuse to believe I am in. I am a realistic person but I might just be too trusting. Shall I start being even more cynical towards life? Could it be that Jelvin's right after all?

I feel like crawling into a hole and stop this change from happening... But as they say in my textbooks, "Change is the only constant". It looks like hiding in a hole is not an option for me.

Chin up!